High Profile Death

High Profile Death

As of this writing, there has been quite a bit of high profile “celebrities” passing on. Dying, that is.

Dave Bowie. Alan Rickman. Glenn Frey. Scott Weiland. Meadowlark Lemon.

Photo Credit: John Griffin
Photo Credit: John Griffin

I haven’t been sad about all this. Quite the opposite. Gracious for their inspiration really. Brilliant lights who help us see.

I’ll leave this here from Alan Watts about the “disease” of dying. The disease seems to be in our own heads.

There’s also a nice benefit of realization about children growing up and our resistance to that.

I liked my hangover today…

First of all, I liked my hangover because I had a really good time getting it last night!  But today I liked it because I got to learn a lesson from it.  Like anything in our human experience, we go from low to high to low to medium levels of flow/energy/emotions or whatever you want to call it.  Last night I got to get the high point sharing live music with some good new friends and today I got the low point with a nice little fog of brain shrouding and body aches.

I’ve been reading “Ask and it is Given” by Abraham-Ester Hicks and Jerry Hicks.  It’s about aligning what I’m “feeling” to help me through my life.  Listening to my “gut” feelings, so to speak.  It’s far more technical than that so if it resonates with you, pick it up to learn more.  I’ll be happy to talk to you about what I’ve learned.

In the book there’s a section about how to identify where I’m at on an “emotional” scale and an easy way to “turn my frown upside down”.

Here’s the list:

  1. Joy/Knowledge/Empowerment/Freedom/Love/Appreciation
  2. Passion
  3. Enthusiasm/Eagerness/Happiness
  4. Positive Expectation/Belief
  5. Optimism
  6. Hopefulness
  7. Contentment
  8. Boredom
  9. Pessimism
  10. Frustration/Irritation/Impatience
  11. “Overwhelment”
  12. Disappointment
  13. Doubt
  14. Worry
  15. Blame
  16. Discouragement
  17. Anger
  18. Revenge
  19. Hatred/Rage
  20. Jealousy
  21. Insecurity/Guilt/Unworthiness
  22. Fear/Grief/Depression/Despair/Powerlessness

I was trying to buy tickets to the Foo Fighters as soon as the they went on sale at 10am.  It was going great for the first 30 seconds.  I got two amazing seats in just the right sweet spot!  Then BAM!  The site got overwhelmed and Ticketmaster’s load balancing system took over.  “We’re sorry, we’re experiencing an extremely high volume traffic right now.  We need to turn off the interactive seat map and any tickets that you may have in your cart will be returned to the general pool of “best available tickets”.  AAAAARRRRRRGGGGGGG!  Whoa I was at #19 on the list pretty damn quick!!  And on down to #22 with Greif/Depression/Despair and Powerlessness.  🙁

That “mood” stayed around too!  I bounced around the bottom 1/2 for a while when somehow, out of nowhere, I ask myself what am I feeling RIGHT NOW?  As soon as I turned my attention to my feeling something amazing happened.  I giggled.  Just by THINKING about where I was, I automatically realized that “I” was in control of this.  That giggle turned into an infectious belly laugh that brought me right up the list.  I didn’t get all the way up in that moment but I moved the needle.  And that’s the point of the lesson I was given.

Just move the needle.

Here’s where it gets interesting.  I got out of my hole.  But I started thinking about others in their hole.  Their hole will look different than mine.  For example, when I see people in a state of hatred or rage, that is a better state than Unworthiness or Despair.  They’re ok!  They’re above the bottom!  I can have compassion for that emotion now.  I also realized that they might get Angry to get feeling better.  They might even calm down out of that and move up to Frustration.  They might even be open to Contentment?  They might see a cute kitten video on the internet now and bump up into Happiness for a bit?!!

My Belief/Positive Expectation is why I’m “feeling” this Enthusiasm/Eagerness to write a post about helping someone see that Anger is ok today.  Also that Jealousy is an ok thing to feel right now.  But to know that living in Joy/Freedom and Love you will need to move the needle “toward” the top.

The great news is that all you have to do is move one step higher.  I hope to see you at the top < 3

No one will be there to hear you complain

Short version:
No one will be there to hear you complain.

Long version:
My calves were starting to talk to me around mile 11 during my favorite hike up Eagle Creek. This after a super high energy night of bouncing with a bunch of 20 somethings enjoying all that is Con Bro Chill from the right side of the stage.  But I’m by myself, who’s going to listen to my pain?

As I descend further, my left knee starts talking to me too,  quite a bit louder than the calves.  This is a sharp, pointed, stabbing feeling that’s going to stay with me for the next 2 miles.  Who’s going to listen to my pain for the next 45 minutes as my pace slows.IMG_2906

I love how these moments alone bring me lessons I need to learn. Because I clearly didn’t get the message before when I was with someone to complain to.
I begin reflecting on times when I was with a couple different girlfriends whom I had been comfortable enough with to mention that I tended to comment (complain) a bit on my state of health moment by moment.  …this cough has been bugging me.  …my wrist feels like there’s something wrong with it. …my back is really tight today.

The hard truth hits me:
No one will be there to hear me complain.
And it’s come true in that moment for me.
I’m hiking alone.

My lesson gets expanded.  I continue thinking about all complaining, not just physical.  I thought about other people, situations out of my control, Facebook, quality of food.  No one wants to hear about my complaints.  They will out of compassion, but they will eventually be too exhausted to give me that energy over time and disengage with me.

So, what’s the solution?  Not talk?  In my moment in nature on this sweet day of a crisp fall in my beautiful NW full of waterfalls, moss, giant douglas fir and hemlock that surrounds me, I find gratitude.

Gratitude is the opposite of complaining.

And in fact in that new moment my pain subsides a bit closer to normal.  It stays with me still as a reminder to stay present in that thought of gratitude, but it doesn’t punish me now.  The last 2 miles turns into a gratitude-fest.  I was grateful before but it would ebb and flow on my attention that took me out of the forest and into my thoughts of other worlds.  I’m not only grateful about what was filling my eyes, ears and lungs, but I appreciated the very fact that I’m able to hike 14 miles.  For if I couldn’t, I wouldn’t be able to see these marvels that fill my viewfinder.  I’m reminded by what I’m wearing.  I wouldn’t be able to come to these places without my waterproof hiking boots, breathable rain gear, layers of dry-fit, and wool socks.  I’m grateful for all these things now and it expands.IMG_2965

My lesson concludes with the realization that if I focus on the pain, I’m narrowing my view to that one point.  I’m looking so close at that one point, that all else falls away. But if I look “from” that point, my view expands.  My whole existence expands and I feel full of gratitude.


Robin Williams was the guy who danced like no one was watching

That’s why we miss him.
Not because we’re sad about the struggles that he lost at. Like the underdog. It’s a part but not why we’re deeply saddened.
Robin Williams was the guy who
He was the comic who was spewing funny anytime his mouth opened. Why? Because he didn’t give a shit what you thought of what was coming out. He was a full blooming comic flower!  Larger than any other flower. More colorful than any other. More nectar than any other and we were his bees, his flower lover.
For any pain you feel, look inward.  Ask yourself, why is this pain?  We miss this guy.  Almost to a person, my Facebook feed was filled with pain, grief, sadness.  It was too late to live through Robin any longer.  And we’re going to miss it.
“It”.  That “it” was how we saw Robin.  How we watched him blossom into pure human energy.  He delivered faster than we could take it in.  He just flowed.  His energy was magic.
His lesson to us is to allow yourself to be Robin.  In your own way.  Go and bloom!  You’re not a comic like Robin, that was HIS dharma.  We’re saddened because we admired him for his purpose and that was dead on his purpose!  He was an example of how to live your life…to the fullest.
Sure he got caught in a place he couldn’t escape.  We can’t be sure what was going on, nor should we be too concerned.  Somehow this was his path.  And his path just crossed ours in a powerful way.
Remember Robin on your path.  Go bloom!   < 3

Love thy plants…metaphorical lessons of love

You know you need to take care of your plants, fish, dogs, cats, whatever or they’re going to wither away or worse perish.

I’m learning that it applies to the people in my life and they are similar.

It comes from Deepak Chopra’s concept within the “Seven Spiritual Laws” about Attention and Desire (and the subset of Intention).

Whatever you put your attention on will

“Whatever you put your attention on will grow stronger in your life.  Whatever you take your attention away from will wither, disintegrate, and disappear.”

When you focus your attention on an object, person or goal, you’re orchestrating a stream of events to bring about an intended outcome.  Attention starts the process.

I’ve loved these “slower” entities for much of my life.  Only recently am I catching up in “real time” to allow myself to Be Love to all you upright conscious souls!  Be patience with me, I’m learning.  I’ve loved cats by being a provider of food and petting them where ever and whenever they desired.  I’ve loved fish by consistently feeding them, changing their water and cleaning their tank.  I’ve loved plants, grass, trees, inanimate objects like roofs, driveways, boats, cars, etc.  Most people in my life would say I take pretty good care of the “things” around me.

I’m learning that when I decide to grow a garden, that’s my first step toward my intended outcome of being nourished.  Then, all the steps begin to fall into place.  Where am I going to locate these plants?  How did I decide that was a good place?  Is it a sunny location?  Can I get to it easily?  With people, this might look like my circle of friends and family or maybe the world as a whole?

How big will my garden of people look like?  If it’s too small, I won’t get the nourishment I need to be full.  If it’s too large, I won’t be able to pay enough attention to it all.  And I’ll lose touch with the field.

But what if….what if by me having a garden that’s just the right size for me that others decide they’re going to have a garden that’s just the right size for them…

What if I could show you how to prepare your soil so that it’s ready to accept the seeds and those seeds of ideas could sprout.  Those ideas could be your hopes and dreams.  Maybe by planting an array of seeds of unknown origin, you could find which plants grows the best in your garden?  And by putting your attention toward those plants that do best with you, you could meet your potential to show the world?  By growing your best plants you nourish someone else?!  They see your garden, and you both get nourished.  And it continues.

Attention is Love.

For me, I feel like I’ve just recently planted my seeds of people and they’re beginning to sprout.  I plan on paying attention with the intention of Love, just like before but to this higher level.  My intention is that my attention will help others realize their higher purpose while in this realm.  And maybe that’s the whole idea of living?

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What a dump truck taught me about negativity…

Have you ever gotten a ding in your windshield from a dump truck carrying gravel?

I know I sure have.   Kind of annoying.  Now you have to get the windshield all fixed up.

I saw a dump truck the other day and I had a different thought.  Why do we follow so close when we know the dump truck is carrying gravel?  Why don’t we give it more room so that we can avoid the rocks?  Why should we expect not to get hit if we follow too close?

Dump trucks need to carry gravel.  That’s what they do.  They’re also going to miss a few pieces of gravel and they’re going to fall off.  Are they wrong for missing those few pieces and the damage they cause to your car?  Sure they are!

Somehow at the same time of this thought, I made the connection to some other things that we are certain to come across in life and the top thing on my mind happened to be negative people.  It was from Facebook’s experiment on how negativity affected people’s posts following a string of negative posts that Facebook chose for certain people’s feeds.

Negative people are like dump trucks.

You know the people, glass half empty folks.  Complainers.  Facebook polluters.  Drama follows them around like white on rice.  They carry gravel…lots of it!  And some don’t even bother closing the back door to the truck.

I’m giving these folks the benefit of the doubt.  These folks are carrying a lot of gravel because they’re going somewhere.  They are searching.  They don’t know exactly where they’re going, but they are going nonetheless.  They will get where they need to go when they’re ready.  But they are going to be armed with a load.  So, what should we do to help them?

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We can’t pick a new road to go on.  They also have a convoy with them.  We can’t get around them to pass.  Why not back off and give them the room they need to settle those pebbles?  You don’t drop good friends because a rock or two comes in your car’s direction.  You stick with them for the times they really need you.  Their truck might run out of gas or get a flat tire.  These are the times they need you.  It might be a good time to approach them and ask them what they need.  And they WILL need you.

If you follow too close (get too involved), you’re going to get hammered with rocks.  When you get too much of it, you’re not going to be in any shape to be able to help others with your bright and cheery demeanor.  Other trucks might be breaking down and you’ll miss that opportunity to help the truck (friend) who really needs you now.

The lesson I learned from all this was that I’m not going to stop dump trucks from dropping gravel.  I’m going to leave a little more room between me and them and maybe if someday they need help, I’ll be ready.